If I hurt myself more, a little bit more, perhaps the
feelings will die,
If not be dead, maybe-perhaps-I crave to feel a little bit
less.
The feelings that drown me, the feelings that trap, that torment,
The feelings creating that void every moment, however I try.
I need my hands gone, my limbs and my brain-let’s get rid of
them all,
But still when I lose them the feelings grow a hand, a pair
of limbs and a mind.
I make a promise to myself, next time will be more
merciless, will strike so I bleed more,
So that I remember the pain and the throbbing, hoping that
will draw the feelings to an end.
Why do I still feel, why do I still cry, why laugh and why
still save the hope in that room?
I wish to be a stone, a cold ruthless stone, just perform
but never again feel the pain.